o-wild-child

This makes me sad. I haven't been on DA for months, and I come back to find everything flipped around. Gaaah. @____@
And everytime I look at my gallery I feel ashamed...I'm so far ahead from the last shit I posted. I've completed almost 6 sketch books since then. Finished numerous paintings. My work has evolved so far beyond those old sketches.
But still I do not think I have the motivation to upload my work onto DA.

I have about 11,000 deviations to look through on here too...

Curse my laziness...CURSE IT!!!

In other news, I now have a Tumblr{deadfawn.tumblr.com/}. Addicted I am to this website. ADDICTED. @_____@


See my myspace{www.myspace.com/tormentas_wrat…}if you wish to see the work I have failed to update on here.
Though there are probably none that even care. Hehe...

I'M DONE WITH THIS PLACE.
I'M DONE WITH THESE PEOPLE.
I'M DONE WITH UNHAPPINESS.

I'M MOVING
MYSELF TOWARDS
BETTER DAYS.

Tonight I got my new kitten. I'm naming her Re-l(anyone watch Ergo Proxy?). She's the most darling little thing. Completely black with gold eyes. Apparently she loves to hide(she used to be a wild cat so she's not used to humans), but she isn't scared when I pick her up. She seems to like me! Briana, my brother's ex who works at a vet clinic and caught Re-l and her siblings, handed me Re-l and she was totally content. She said I'm the only other person Re-l's been comfortable with besides her and that we'll be a good match.
It was adorable. The moment everyone else left the room I was holding that little black furball and she started purring really loud.
We'll see how the weekend goes. I love her already.

This has been just about the worst past two weeks of my ENTIRE life. It was absolutely terrifying.
I was on acutane, which is an insanely strong medication to treat acne. And there are serious side effects. Basically anything that could change in your body can happen. Mental and physical.
I just happened to be one of the minority that had an extremely serious side effect. The acutane effected my eyesight. For the past two weeks my eyesight has been blurry and I've been sensitive to light and stuff. It's so hard to explain. The best way I can explain would be to compare it to sunspots. Or, well, you know how when you look at an object for too long then look away, there is the impression of that object? That's what it was like, but to the extreme. I would look at something for less than three seconds and the image would be there when I looked away.
I was terrified.
Honestly, i thought i was going to go blind. I was so scared, because if I were to go blind almost every single dream i have would be obsolete. My art, my writing, everything.
Now, thinking about that while I stayed home half the week was NOT fun. Especially because I couldn't do ANYTHING besides listen to the radio. Right now I have to wear sunglasses while looking at anything like computer screens and TVs. And I'm still scared of permenant damage, but the doctor said my eyes were amazingly healthy, and that the problem should clear up completely once the drug is out of my system.
I don't think you could pay me to take any serious medications now.
FML. FML HARD.

Why are my journals always explanations for my absense on DA? They're all so depressing, I'm sorry.

I've FINALLY, after months! I've finally uploaded some old shat that needed uploading. Enjoy as you see fit. or don't look at it. waaaaaatevvvvvvvvvvvvvarrr
^__________^

oh and there will be more old drawings later, cause I have a folder full. and then I can upload some of my more recent paintings and things.
AND THEN when my camera is working again(Desa! send me the charger! ;A; ) I can take pictures of my RECENT stuff..phew..